| Is it a bad idea for love?
Is it a bad idea to fall in love when you suffer depression? I feel in love with a great guy and he for me, but we broke up this morning like 30 minutes ago because of a conflict between his brain and heart. When I am in a relationship I put my all into it and when it ends I get crushed and I find myself sinking again. I had finally gotten to the top of my dperession and getting over it, but now I am quickly sinking back into the crying and dispair. I know he didn't mean to hurt me but I feel it is my fault this happened. I feel as if I am to blame, and this is also another thing with my depression, I put all blame on me. I hurt him by telling him I love him so soon after he ended an enagement. I just can't stop the tears and the feelings right now. I am nto speaking with him for at leats month while he works on himself, so it will be even worse because I know I will start to think, hell already thinking our friendship over. I want to just drown myself in booze, it'll be easy to drink myself into numbness now because I am 21. I just hate myself for this. I fell so hard and now I am falling further from conqouring my depression.
Sorry for my rambleing.
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