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with ym depression i am at times willing to let people walk all over me to keep friends. i have come to realize i hate to be alone. lately my friends from this area where i live have all decided not to contact me. it's hard because i used to hang out and want to party, but then i started to talk more to a guy who i met online and he shared what happened when he drank. so this made me think about it and since i have turned of legal age i have only had 2 drinks. i have a new job and my "friends" can't seem to realize that and school are the important things in my life. i am sick of being walked on, but i am sick of being hurt by my friends. i was a memeber of a forum and i got banned because the administrator was having a bad day and i was sticking up for myself. so now i don't have anywhere to really go to have fun. i'm just so alone and hurt and i am sick of it. i think my immune system has been affected because i can't shake this horrible cold and the headaches.
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