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Hi D,
Easy does it, my friend. You've worked hard to get to where you are today i.e. back in school, sober, etc.
How many meetings are you making a week? Someone else suggested online meetings, and that may be a good supplement to your recovery right now. I would still go to face to face meetings, at least 1 to 2 times a week to stay connected.
I understand the feelings of being overwhelmed by everything that you need to do. For me, I try to prioritize the top two or three things that are absolutely essential to my life and meetings i.e. getting to my job, minimum 3 meetings a week and work everything else around that. Is there nothing you can cut out of your life to make things more manageable? Maybe even cutting out a couple of hours from work? Is that possible? Try not to burn yourself out, if that's possible.
When I feel overwhelmed with responsibilities, which, for me, sometimes involve keeping a clean house for my family, I have to give up the idea of a perfect home and make do with a less tidy environment. It means more time for me taking care of myself whether I want to lie down with a book, walk the dog, etc.
You had mentioned your ambition, and your compulsiveness, so you seem to recognize that there may be things you can and/or need to let go of.
Maybe you won't succeed as quickly if you slow down/lighten your workload, but at least, in my opinion, your chances of succeeding will increase. Hope this makes sense.
Rowan
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