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Hi,

I posted some time ago about my troubles with money and getting back into college, namely that my disability money had been seized by a creditor, and that I was having a hard time getting back into college, due to the fact that I got kicked off campus while I was on a binge, and that I had to go to a psychologist to get a letter saying that I was okay to attend school.

Well, I'm back in school, I got my money back, and in one month, I'll have a year sober. I am very happy to be back in school, as, after this semester, and one more in the fall, I will have graduated, and then I am going to apply to graduate school.

I am finding it much harder to live one day at a time, now that my life is moving forward. I also find myself much more tired, and it is much harder to get to meetings. If I can get to a meeting, I am often so tired that I have a great deal of difficulty, and other people sometimes jokingly make fun of me ("keeping you awake?"), which bothers me a little, I have to admit, as I don't fall asleep, and I work, very, very hard, often walking to meetings, as I don't have a car, and have to walk to catch trains to most meetings. (I have to work hard if I want to better my life).

Honestly, I would like to go to three meetings a day, but then I couldn't move forward with my life, as going to a meeting without a ride takes 3 hours out of my day, just walking to the station, going to the meeting, and walking back.

I am self-employed, and work 4 hours a day, in addition to going to school. If I do not work, and go to school, I will not be able to move ahead with my life.

I also tend to push myself very hard, and be very ambitious, I have noticed, in trying to achieve my goals, compulsive, even.

This is life on life's terms, but I am just not used to it yet, and would like advice from some people with experience, what they did when their lives started to get more complex in sobriety.

Thanks for reading my post,
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