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wow, this is a great topic for me right now. I was married just over 2 weeks ago, and my bipolar has been causing some problems. I am pregnant and had to go off the meds - so I'm on the rollercoaster worse than I've seen it in over 2 years.
i can really identify with that, lilya, about punishing the men I am with for what others have done in the past. I have never looked at it like that and it really helps to.
It is my tendency to try to punish by hurting my self...I used to drink or use at them, or cut and starve myself. "if only he could see what he does to me inside" so I'd try to match it on the outside. i believe those behaviors come more during mania.
Depression in relationships, I begin to feel very insecure because I feel worthless and doubt why he would want me. I sleep so much, and am ashamed of it, and it's harder to hide it when you live wiht someone.
Right now my therapist wants me to bring in my husband so she can explain bipolar to him and we can setup a plan in case I go haywire. I am very afraid, because I did not ever explain what "could happen".
I find that my alcaholism and addiction was very much a symptom of by bi-po, and that working my recovery program honestly helps alot to ease the worst of the ups and downs. I have a hard time remebering taht I can't control my moods - but I'm trying to keep focused on what I can do. In a relationship, especially with someone who is not bipolar and especially not the depressed type, i find myself judging me in relation to how well he handles things, not a person with this disease.
thanks for the thread!
lu
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