Hi, psychosymantics;
And welcome to SR!
While I'm not a doctor, it does seem as if you're depressed. Only your doctor can say for sure, though, so please go talk to him/her about these issues. Depression is nothing to fool around with.
In the meantime, you are in Seattle Wa, and if I remember correctly, that's a rainy place to be. It's also in the dead of winter. It's dark and gloomy. Seasonal Affective Disorder, (SAD), is a common ailment for many of us. So, take heart in that this can be a short term condition,and easily treated. You can look up light therapy; that has a very effective rate of help for many with SAD.
Also, be sure to do small things for yourself each day. Take care of yourself physically, (eat right, exercise), mentally, (learn something new), emotionally, (Pamper yourself; affirmations), and spiritually, (reconnect with the One or meditate.) Every day do something in each catagory.
I KNOW you don't feel like doing anything. Try to do one thing then. Start small, and build up. As you become successful in one area, it's likely that you'll add more. Nothing breeds success like success!
So, what ONE thing will you do today?
(Other than call your doctor?)
YOu could learn about the light therapy....
Please let us know what you've decided to do for yourself, and how you're doing. We care...
Shalom!