[psychosymantics]

I just feel so crazy. I had such active younger years, I feel tired now, I have no ambition, I have so many dreams but I just seem unable to set goals and be consistant with them, I lose interest so quickly I cry too much, I have a beautiful loving boyfriend and I feel like such a failure compared to him and I don't deserve him because of this, I constantly wonder what I'm doing in this life. Why am still here? I have spiritual beliefs. I dream dream dream of what I want and how happy I can be, but I have no motivation to do any of it. I feel like I'm just going to fade away. my body has gotten fatter and has made me more tired, my bones are weak and my muscles have no strength, I feel if I keep on this way I will end up with serious medical problems. I joined a gym and still haven't gone. I have a "been there done that" attitude. I really do want my dreams to come true, I'm just a-motivated to actualy do something about it. I'm so depressed. and can't shake the funk.