daydream;
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Please don't futurize; it doesn't help and it only increases our anxiety.
Right now, just focus on today. Meditate, relax, exercise or do whatever you do to regain your serenity.
Is there someone you can get to go with you on the date of the hearing? Someone that would help you cope? It's difficult dealing with these things. But, we do so because we must. ANd you will do so.
Do you see a counselor? That person may be able to help you prepare. Be sure to have any papers you may need or whatever. Use your support system now. That's why they are available for you!
And so are we. Please be sure to let us know how you're doing...
Shalom!