Thank you to everyone. It's like looking into a mirror & seeing exactly what he is doing & going through. I think the only way for him to have a chance to beat this is rehab. The hard part is getting him to go. When he gives in to it & is hating himself for it he promises everything -- he'll go to meeting, he'll go into rehab "tomorrow".
He says "it's hard to stay away, I wasn't going to, I didn't even want it, But.....". I told him that if thinks that is hard he should try it from my side. Most of the time I do pretty good inside, some days like today I get down & feel hopeless. I'm finding that my focus is shifting & centering more & more on our daughter & myself. I feel that I need to push his problem to the sidelines of my priorities, I can't do anything for him other than suggest he go for the treatment he needs. I been looking for information on the Marchman act and weighing it's benefits and drawbacks to our situation and family. Any feedback on this?