[Nina Kay]

I am feeling just so sad. My son is a drug addict & an alcoholic. He has been for 11 or 12 yrs. It is so heartbreaking for everyone that loves him and I know that he's so miserable in his life. We were so blindsighted by this all those years ago. None of us in our family had ever been exposed to anyone with an alcohol or drug problem. None of us, in our little family, even drinks or uses drugs. We just had no clue what was even going on, when he first went to the emergency room, throwing up so much that he was severely dehydrated within three hours. We had no idea that it had anything at all to do with alcohol. The Drs. couldn't even figure it out. They started guessing that it was binge drinking doing it, but alot of things about it just didn't add up. I'm only sharing this because I know that it's so much of why I'm so sad and angry. I can't save my son and I know that now without any reservation. It saves me from spinning my wheels trying and the feeling of beating my head against a brick wall, but it is so horrible for a parent to know that they can't do anything to rescue their child, even though they can see them heading straight for disaster.

My daughter is on the phone so I'll have to add more later.