[Nina Kay]

I've always thought that I was a "what you see is what you get" type of person, but now I'm realizing that as much as that's true, there are other extreme sides to my character that others don't see at the same time. I didn't realize what a jolt or shock that was to others and they just don't understand how I can be two opposite extreme personalities, so they just think that I've been dishonest with them about who I really am. BUT, I'm really not. I really am both of those extreme characters rolled in one. I just don't know how to balance them. My husband just got through saying that I am so easily frustrated and when I am I go to the extreme with how I act when so frustrated. Most of the time, I just want to hate myself and think that I can't even trust myself around others, but I'm trying to learn to love myself.