| Resentment is running my life ....Help
Still suffering alcoholic here..my names North
I have 13 days sober , been to a meeting every day..getting support..reading the book. Have a sponsor.
But I am just being devoured by resentment right now. My SO..or what I THOUGHT was my SO..brought me home drugs and alcohol which led to my relapst. No of course he did not force it down my throat but I just was really caught offgaurd as we were BOTH staying sober adn going to meetings Anyway we relapsed together then he proceeded to empty my bank account to the tune of 1200 dollars. I am a single mom who just lost her job and now am facing homelessness because of my own idiocy and letting this person into my life to begin with. I can't stop thinking about how he let me down ..how he could do this to me..plotting revenge..you name it.
I KNOW I am responsible for even letting him into my life to begin with and drinking and using with him. I really hate myself for it right now because the price of this last relapse on me has been horrible.
NOT just financially..emotionally.
I am praying for him..he is a sick person right??
I just can't believe I let it happen.
So any experience dealing with resentments guys??
I am a hurtin unit and want to get past this!!!!!!!!!
Thanx so much for the help!
love North
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