[Tazman53]

Rose trust me when I say you are not unique, you are not the only alcoholic that has withdrawn from the world and into the bottle, every one of us has.

Being an active alcoholic is not a group activity, it is all about me, me and my bottle, I spent almost every evening for years sitting alone in my garage drinking, hating myself because of the way my life had become work and drinking alone. I hated myself, no one understood me or the pain I was in all by myself.

Yes I do have a wife and kids, but that damn sure did not stop me from drinking alone, what stopped me from drinkng was I was scared!!!!

I was scared of dying a long drawn out alcoholic death, which is what I finally saw in a moment of drunken lonely clarity.

Rose what I have found in sobriety is self respect, love for myself and for others. How did I find that? I admitted I was POWERLESS over alcohol, I could not stop drinking alone, I needed help, I needed a Higher Power that I understood to give me the power to stop drinking. I found that in the rooms of AA.

Rooms full of people just like me, sober drunks who loved me for what I was, a drunk alcoholic that wanted to get sober and stay sober.

Well in these rooms full of sober drunks I not only found sobriety, I found fellowship, understanding, compassion, love, people who were alcoholics that knew how to stay sober.

They stay sober by becoming better people, happier people by working the 12 step program.

An unhappy alcoholic that is sober is in reality nothing but a dry drunk.

A happy alcoholic that is sober is a happy person, which is exactly what I am thanks to AA & my HP.

Rose do not give up on yourself, you are not unique, when you are ready, when you are at that point in your life where you can no longer take the pain any more is when you will surrender and become sober.

Rose there are folks that love you here, I am amoung them, I have felt your pain, we have a bound, I know your loneliness, I surrendered and when I really surrendered is when I gained sobriety and hapiness.