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hey, crying good? absolutely, i find its best when with the witness of a loving and trusted friend because when my pain is validated it is much easier to accept and release. then again sometimes i just have to cry. its like when something is funny and i cant help but LAUGH, its releasing the emotion rather than repressing it and causing all sorts of trouble, like, godm probably cancer by not allowing myself ot feel. a marriage ending is a great loss and like any loss i believe one needs to grieve in order to accept. im not married but i have know loss in my life and with a program and the faith i choose one day to get out of that dark hole because i value someone more than what ive lost, me and what my life is going to be on this earth.
i used to equate sex with love, take sexual interest in me as a sign of love. due to my childhood and having a parent who was also sexually abusive. im learning differently now but thats why i got the two mixed up. not goin to be ashamed that i trusted because i refuse to bne ashamed of being an open and loving being that sees the good in others but one thing ive had to learn and still learn is boundaries in my life and to have some barrier, maybe not the barb wires but now a big welcome sign either....rambling....ad for divorce, if it brings you closer to feeling at ease i would say do it buti ts your choice because remember its your life, your body and your future. you can choose! what others think aint none of my business and they can hate it or love it baby!!! peace and good luck on your path!
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