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doing well actually. nice and peaceful tonight.
sadness can be a very useful tool if you recognize it for what it is, feel it, accept it and walk through it. if you don't fight it then you will move forward faster. what you are going through would make anyone sad.
i do not really know the chemical makeup of tears but i do know that crying does seem to purge that sad emotion. if you are very energetic and you go out and wash the car, you purge the energy. tears are liquid sadness i guess. let it out.
someone on this board said recently that an alcoholic's words are irrelevant. make your decisions and conclusions based on his actions. b/c at the end of the day that's all that matters.
i am totally with you on the myspace thing. i used to torture myself stalking my exabf on there but now it doesn't really matter anymore. i've accepted that he's like scrambled eggs......i cannot have just the white or the yellow part, i've got to take all or nothing. i've chosen nothing. he's seen other girls (medicating his pain) and i firmly believe that anyone who stays with him a long time must like their eggs scrambled. these days i'm going for sunny side up!
lots of huggs to you lillian.
be good to yourself.