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Good subject Lilya, I react in various ways to my relationships when depressed..sometimes I just don't have any "feelings", other times I feel so alone and fear abandonment at any moment, once in awhile I feel anger and irritated and just avoid everybody which really bothers me because I am usually an outgoing person that truly enjoys making my family comfortable and love to do special things for them....and that dreaded depression that convinces me I do not deserve my family and they would be better off without me and my "garbage' in their life....it's pretty much like a roller coaster ride, sometimes the kiddy one and the ride isn't so bad...and then there is the Texas Giant and that upside down crazy insane rollercoaster that makes me wish I never got on the "ride of relationships".