I´ve been reading, answering and sharing a lot lately on the issue of relationships and thought of starting this thread. I hope we can all help each other on that score. :shades:
When I was diagnosed as bi-polar in 1997, lots of things suddenly made sense. I saw how this disease - not only my alcholism/drugtaking/gambling and then recovery - has destroyed so much in my relationships. I truly belive I acted like a crazy person sometimes until I got the meds.
It seemed that relationships ignited my deep-seated anger towards the men who had hurt me when I was a young girl and I felt an irrational need to punish other men for their abuse.
Now I´m celibate because I´m tackling this very delicate and difficult subject, but it´s just in the beginning stages. I´m observing, going to my groups and therapy in order to get better.
I´m writing a book based on my relationships in order to understand them. It´s a sequel to a book I published in 2001, but I feel I have made progress to tackle the subject differently.
How about you? How do you feel about your relationships when you´re depressed and seeing things bleak - if not black? I haven´t the faintest idea how to react when the depression hits and I would be with an intimate friend.
I guess we all have different ways to respond and could learn from one another. I know this is a very personal subject, however, but share what you like and leave the rest at home.
