Snd,
We feel like this at times when the depression hits hard. I know this feeling.
May I suggest something? How about organizing things a bit better so it won´t be so overwhelming? Sometimes it´s good to take one bad thought out and do something about it. Prioritize. You cannot take on the world all by yourself at once. You need support and strenght while you´re so down.
Believe me, girl, there are always options. Even in a prison camp you have the option of not breaking your spirit. Let´s take this one step at a time. Find out about a support group in your area and try to make that one little step - I know it can seem huge - to contact some one to help. How about calling a doctor? Try to put all the other bad things on hold.
Let me know how you´re doing and don´t feel too bad. We all feel like victims at time and it´s only human. The trick is to turn it around and find inner strength. It´s in you somewhere if you only let it through.
The bad feeling will pass, you´ll see.