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I too am a binge drinker and after years, the binges grew closer and closer together. In my 20's I might get all out of hand one night a weekend..but I KNEW it was problematic and I actually attended an AA meeting back then but it didn't sit right with me then I guess. When I had my heartbroken at about 32 I started drinking nightly..just a few to ease the pain and get some sleep and my downward spiral really began. I always involved myself with other heavy drinkers and my last relationship was excruciatingly painful because basically we were both drunk unable to handle our raging and rollicking emotions. If you think its a problem, it probably is. I knew way back when and I remember wishing "if only I were a "real" alcoholic I could stop this insanity". Well, guess what..I was an alcoholic and I am an alcoholic. I'm 39 years old now and I've wasted so much and endured so much unneccessary pain. I have found the answers I have long wondered about in AA. To each their own tho. I would've have slapped anyone who told me to go to AA six months ago...thought they were some odd cult or something. Boy, was I wrong.
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