I like my new nurse and Dr. Marte!

I was leaning toward the non-med thing but I just don't think I can do it. I don't have any energy. I can't sleep. I don't do anything productive and when I do I'm like a chicken with my head cut-off. I have to pretend to be happy all the time. It's tiresome. I just think right now I need the meds. Hopefully not forever..........I really hope not.....but I'm not me right now. I know this is wrong to say -- and I usually correct people when they say it -- but "normal" I just want to be "normal".