Welcome back, Wallgazer,
You have my support here. You realize the seriousness of your depression and that´s a good place to start getting out of it. Believe me, it passes.
Don´t overdo it, but I tend to agree with Juls. I find it more effective to push myself, then I activate some adrenaline and maybe some endorphines. You get over the episode faster.
Is there a place near you where you can be in nature? Maybe just a park or a pond? Nature is the greatest healer; it gives you inner strength. So do animals, pets.
Have you spoken to your doctor about your medications? Maybe you need to change them or alternate. Then try our movie club.
Let me know how you´re doing, I´m here and believe me, I´ve been in your shoes. It will pass.
Love and light,