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i didnt exactly know where to post i have many differnt issues i could posted just about anywhere im manic -depressive bipolar or they tell me and i have adhd ,im addicted to vicodin and well any kind of pain pills or m,uscle relaxers or sleeping pills i can get and alcohol , i am related to a drug addict well a few i have insomnia and an anxiety disorder as well as an eating disorder ive tried to kill my self numerous times each time being stopped by either my concious or a family memeber and being takin to a hospital for a while it all seemed to get better and then poof all that i had accomplished was gone all that hard work for nothin i was cutting and using again and thats where i am today im not in recovery i dont know if i ever have been or ever will be i wish i could stop this i find my self wanting to hurt those i love most physically and i fear i am already doing it emotionally even though thats the last thing i want . i know my family feels responsible for this but they arent i wish they could understand that i couldnt make them understand that mabye someone else will i hope they know how much i love them i think they do and i hope they know that i know they love me oh lord they dont deserve this not at all !
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