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Hi all,
My name is Mike and I'm an alcoholic. My recovery in AA started when I took the first step. For me, I think this occurred when I attended my first AA meeting. Mind you, I wasn't aware of it at the time, but my attendance at the meeting was an admission of powerlessness. I just couldn't take it anymore.
I had been drinking for twenty years - starting at age 16 - the last eight of which I wouldn't wish on anyone. Once I got going I couldn't stop. The progression of my disease was gradual - but inevitable. I went from the fun of keg parties down the park and frat parties at school to ten day benders that only ended when I was too tired to go on.
Throughout this time I was able to cling to a job, but I knew that it would soon be gone. Many nights I didn't want to drink, but found myself in a Jameson induced stupor at 2 am with no idea how it happened. Something had to change. I was completely powerless.
Somehow one night I crawled to an AA meeting. When the time came for me to introduce myself I found myself saying that i was an alcoholic. As for my life being unmanageable - I basically had no life. That's unmanageability. I was a college educated man living on the third floor of his sister's house with a TV on an empty milkcrate, two pairs of pants, three shirts, a futon to sleep on, and an empty refrigerator.
Things are different now. I've been sober ten years and the journey has been awesome. I've got a wife, a two year-old daughter, a five week old son, am working on my doctorate, and i believe and trust in my higher power.
It all started with step one - a simple admission that I was a drunk and my life was out of control. That's all it took. The rest of the steps helped take care of the rest.
Well, that's all from me. Hope to hear from others,
Mike in Boston
sheilas(and liam's)dad
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