[GlassPrisoner]

38 Days in now, and my "Pink Cloud" just disappeared from under me. The more the fog lifts, the more I see. And I don't like a lot of what I see.

Today I am experiencing anxiety, anger, fear and remorse/guilt.

Anxiety and fear over the unknown. I need a job, and to fix my car.
Anger at myself for getting myself into this mess.
Remorse/Guilt for all the lives I've messed up while using. Wife, Children, Friends, Co-Workers and Bosses.....

I know, I know. It's selfish, self-centered, thinking. But dammit, I can't help how I feel. (Well, I can Thank God at least I feel.)

I've said The Serenity Prayer over and over. And I've spent the day staying busy cleaning. I'll call my sponsor at lunch and do some meetings tonight. At least the anxiety isn't like it used to be. (Rapid heart beat, panic attacks, shaking, etc)

I guess that's all I can do but Hope, Wait, and Pray......