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Dear SusieQ,
I am a few years older than you but went thru a really deep depression in my late 30's. Depression is real, and being positive is a lot of effort you may just not be able to muster! Continue to take your medications- it usually takes 2-3 weeks to kick in- you didn't say when you began taking them. Also, it is wonderful you are in counseling. It helps to talk, to journal your feelings, and to visit posts like this...It sounds like you have been hit with triple hits- it would overwhelm anyone! You are hurt, angry and feel so helpless. I feel this way without what you have on you.
I want you to realize that you are a person, created by a loving God and it will be God who will walk with you thru all this. Depressed people are some of the most loving, giving, truthful people around- please, be gentle with yourself- you will come out of this black hole in time. Then, you will be able to evaluate things and perhaps see things a little differently. It does hurt, and it seems so lonely. God is working in you. Just , be still.
Love you-Madeline
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