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Originally Posted by barb dwyer except for the accepting compliments part ... I'm still tripping on myself on that one. I still hold someplace in my mind that they wouldn't be complimenting me if they'd been paying closer attention ... ? |
Me, too. It's hard for me to accept a compliment with just a simple "Thanks." I always want to qualify the compliment for the other person and add "but you wouldn't say that if..." or "you're just saying that because..." Which is actually pretty rude on my part.
Back in the day, I was very sensitive to what other people thought of me because I was constantly weaving a bunch of different personalities and I needed to confirm how well the lies were working. When I got sober and started the work of finding out who I really was, I had to get used to being just me and was always worried that "just me" was not enough. And in one sense, "just me" wasn't/isn't enough, but today I have a set of guidelines for the direction I want to go and better ways to measure the progress. At the risk of sounding like an A.A. cheerleader (or in this forum preaching to the choir? ), I really do believe that this came about because of the steps, the fellowship, and my higher power speaking through the fellowship. I have no other explanation for it.