[pjacats]

I'm trying to get slowly get back on my meds and am increasing the dose gradually every few days. I've called in sick to work the past couple of days because I don't want to see anyone. I'm really trying hard to cope and just get through the day. I was pretty nutty this morning again playing the how many pills would it take game. Unfortunately my only relief was to begin the binge purge cycle again which I've taken back up again when I got off the meds. I guess it's better than the other alternative I was thinking of.

I have to go back to work tomorrow. I absolutely loathe everything about myself right now and don't even want to be in public. I'm going to a meeting tonight for recovering alcoholics who suffer from depression and I'm hoping it will help. But I'd really like some suggestions from this forum. It's a lot easier to ask for help here than in a meeting. What can I do to feel better until the meds kick in?

Thanks!