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shutterbug · 11-22-2006, 10:57 PM

I couldn't agree more. It's a hard thing to do....letting go of unhealthy people in your life who society tells you that you are suppose to love no matter what....or letting go of people who finally showed their true selves and they turned out not to be what you thought.

I let go of my father about 11 months ago after giving him one last chance not to hurt me and that very evening....what did he do? Good ridence. I can only pray that some day he might learn how to live happy and sober....and what that means, but I'm not loosing any more sleep waiting on it to ever happen b/c chances are it won't.

This week my youngest cousin who I love deeply....tried to re-connect with me after about 6 months have gone by since I had to kick her out of my house and I was very hurt to find out who the real her is. Well....this weekend she asked if we could talk. She obviously expected me to embrace her and be buddy, buddy with her again....even though she has since dropped out of high school and has stolen our aunts credit cards....not to mention the drugs and drinking and sex with tons of guys.

I offered her a chance to learn what a healthy life can look like...I was her last chance and she threw it away. I can't let myself suffer for the bad roads she is headed down....but it's still hard to handle even from the outside now.

And the weekend before.....I had to end a relationship with my best friend and her husband. I met her in day treatment when I was in the middle of my major episode and at that time she was as committed to getting healthy as I was. Now....they are smoking pot while their 7-year-old is home, she is back to drinking and trying to control it, and within the last month she's gotten messed up on cocain. She's stubborn and headed down a hill I don't want to watch her fall down.....and I definetly don't want her dragging me down with her.

Her husband being overly disrespectful of me was the last straw. It hurt very deeply, but I knew I had to let go of this relationship that meant so much to me because over the past few months it's only meant more drama and stress and guilt.

Self preservation!
If we don't take care of ourselves....no one else will!
It's up to us now...and it's not always pretty to cut someone loose, but it's almost always worth it and more in the measure of our emotional and mental health.

Hugs,
Jenna

P.S. Yes.....carnivor I am....and I'm gunna be proud of it ALL DAY tomorrow

11-22-2006, 10:57 PM	#2 (permalink)
shutterbug A picture's worth a 1000 words Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: With any luck, I'm lost in a view finder Posts: 2,947 Blog Entries: 5	I couldn't agree more. It's a hard thing to do....letting go of unhealthy people in your life who society tells you that you are suppose to love no matter what....or letting go of people who finally showed their true selves and they turned out not to be what you thought. I let go of my father about 11 months ago after giving him one last chance not to hurt me and that very evening....what did he do? Good ridence. I can only pray that some day he might learn how to live happy and sober....and what that means, but I'm not loosing any more sleep waiting on it to ever happen b/c chances are it won't. This week my youngest cousin who I love deeply....tried to re-connect with me after about 6 months have gone by since I had to kick her out of my house and I was very hurt to find out who the real her is. Well....this weekend she asked if we could talk. She obviously expected me to embrace her and be buddy, buddy with her again....even though she has since dropped out of high school and has stolen our aunts credit cards....not to mention the drugs and drinking and sex with tons of guys. I offered her a chance to learn what a healthy life can look like...I was her last chance and she threw it away. I can't let myself suffer for the bad roads she is headed down....but it's still hard to handle even from the outside now. And the weekend before.....I had to end a relationship with my best friend and her husband. I met her in day treatment when I was in the middle of my major episode and at that time she was as committed to getting healthy as I was. Now....they are smoking pot while their 7-year-old is home, she is back to drinking and trying to control it, and within the last month she's gotten messed up on cocain. She's stubborn and headed down a hill I don't want to watch her fall down.....and I definetly don't want her dragging me down with her. Her husband being overly disrespectful of me was the last straw. It hurt very deeply, but I knew I had to let go of this relationship that meant so much to me because over the past few months it's only meant more drama and stress and guilt. Self preservation! If we don't take care of ourselves....no one else will! It's up to us now...and it's not always pretty to cut someone loose, but it's almost always worth it and more in the measure of our emotional and mental health. Hugs, Jenna P.S. Yes.....carnivor I am....and I'm gunna be proud of it ALL DAY tomorrow __________________ I'M FINE!! Fanatically Insecure Neuratic & Emotional Bipolar/Depression support: 1-800-950-NAMI(6264).