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Well, sorta good news, maybe bad.
My g/f called me this morning from a hotel room on the island, she said she was dying and wanted to know if she could come home to do it. She wouldn't tell me what hotel she was as so I had to call the police, and we checked around and finally found her, she was fine. She didn't overdose or attempted anything, at least that’s what she told the police. Now she’s back at home, and now I feel that I can't have her stay there. I told her to call a doctor and get her help, I told her that she can't stay there anymore, and I can't do this anymore. But I also explained to her that I feel guilty for letting her go, if she gets help fine, if she doesn't well, then it will be hard for me, but fine. I still feel like a schmuck though, and I know I'm doing the right thing. I told her that I was content with her being gone since I felt that maybe she will hit rock bottom then realize that she needs help, and then get it. She took that the wrong way totally, she feels that I don't want her in my life at all, that I don't care what her problems are, and that I'm being selfish. I don't know how much harder I have to express that I do love her deeply, but I have to let her go for now. I'm leaving it in God's hands. I asked what to do and it has presented itself in a way. Now I just have to have faith that she will make the right decision and get help, then we can try again to have a healthy and happy relationship. Wish me luck and pray for us!
Love yaz
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