Bless your heart girl!~Yes, I definitely think you need a good therapist and talk to your doctor, I know how heavy that phone can be, and the thought alone weighs a ton. I came off my meds a month or so ago, was feeling worse on them, but I worry about the suicidal depression hitting again too, the past few days I have been starting to get more depressed. Both of my pregnancies I did real well without any antidepressant, but that was 8 and 10 years ago. Please make the phone calls to get yourself a support network, don't suffer alone through this. I am sending big hugs and love your way my dear..Hang in there okay?
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Many Hugs and Hope too,
Tammie
"Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~
"Things do not change, WE change."
~Henry David Thoreau~