| off meds for pregnancy, very depressed
ugh, i just need some support...and maybe some advice on how to get out of my own way.
About a month ago I went off my mood stabilizer (topomax) because i found out I was pregnant. I'm still on the Prozac, but I'm getting inctreasingly depressed. I keep hoping to bounce out of it, even if it means dealing with mania. But it's just getting worse, especially in teh last week. I also have mornign sickness, but I tell myself and my fiance it's worse than it is so that I'll have an excuse to lay down. I slept until 3pm today. i still want to go back to bed. It's hot and muggy out, so going for a walk makes me feel worse. I am getting married in a week and a half. I am a writer and had a book due last friday, it's not even half done yet. i just feel like sleeping to escape it all.
Three years ago, my cousin killed herself after going off her meds so that she could get pregnant. I'm not suicidal, but I know that this can progress. I am in a new area and don't have a therapist or shrink. And I know I need to do it, It's just so hard to get on the phone, to make those calls. Just thinking about it makes me want to sleep. And the worst part...I can't cry.
I pretty much know what you will say...but I need to hear it. As much as you've got.
Thank-You!
ppg
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