Thank you. God I love this place....
They say when God closes a door he opens a window. I've seen that happen in my life many times. Last night I went to see some friends who have been going through EXACTLY what I'm going through. I see so much hope for my g/f and I and I pray that she is working on getting sober. I had to do something awful yesterday, I had to change the locks at our apartment. She’s pawned our TV and DVD Player already, and I know its just material things, I could care less about that stuff, I'd rather have her than a TV or DVD player, she is much more entertaining =)
I'm starting to realize that what I did isn't a horrible thing, it was something that needed to be done, for our sake. It may take her 5 months or a year, and I may have moved on, I just hope she'll be sober. l got a loan from my bank today. I'm moving off this island and starting new near my family and friends. I know this sounds. . . . . well co-dependant and pathetic.... but I wish she could be here with me. I miss her so much. I miss the sober g/f I once had. Gotta go, typing is hard when your crying…
Love yas