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I appreciate your question. I've been wondering the same thing. I have been sober for 18 months and changed to a sponsorship family about six months ago that doesn't believe in medications. So I've been slowly tapering off all my anti-depressants over the past three months. I have about three weeks left and I'll be off all of them. Unfortunately, for the past week or so, all I think about is suicide. It consumes my thoughts all the time. I don't know what to do. How can I tell if I'm just being a drama queen or if I'm really going to do it? I don't trust any of my thoughts right now. My sponsor doesn't have any experience with depression so she told me to call a girl who had experienced depression and had done so without meds. This girl had never even thought about suicide! How could she help? I can't even fathom being depressed without thinking about suicide.
I'm sorry I'm being very long winded. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm trying the 24 hour a day thing to put off suicide. I'm just trying it one day at a time. Maybe it will pass. I'd really appreciate any and all input. I feel alone and scared.
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