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This was the worst weekend I've ever had.. My g/f and I have been dealing with her Bi Polar disorder, as well as her crack addiction. I know, “dealing with it” is another way of saying enabling it. She was sober for 6 days!! I’m so proud of her!!! But the depression combined with the depression from being bi polar, wow. I was there for her, I sat and listened, didn’t try to be “Mr. Fix it” I just was there. Friday is when it all came down. She got some crack from somewhere, and looked at it for a long time, then took it, she admitted it to me as soon as I got home from work, I wasn’t mad, I wasn’t disappointed, I said to her “ Tomorrow is a new day, we’ll start again” Friday night she lied to her mother and her mother gave her some money, my g/f was gone for quite some time and came back with more crack. She said she wanted to do it here at home, so she’ll feel safer. For some odd reason, I agreed to that!!! I wanted to help her, but I didn’t realize that I wasn’t helping her, I was encouraging her. Saturday was bad but Sunday was the worst of it all. She left the house and came back 9 hours later, with the people who have been giving her the dope, she brought them into our home. She asked if I still loved her and wanted me to meet her friends, I told her “I’m an addict! I can’t be with people who currently use drugs!!” Then, finally, I had to make the decision of keeping her and continuing to enable her addiction, or leave. I had to choose leave. It was a tough and rough weekend. I hope to God that she is doing fine. My sponsor suggested that she must hit rock bottom so she can see how bad her situation is, then she can pull herself up and continue life. I don’t know if that is the best solution, but I know that when I finally stuck bottom, I got cleaned quickly! I hope she will too. Thanks for the rant and the venting. Anyone have any insight as to how I should handle or not handle this situation?