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I have never wanted to look super thin, but I did have a definite idea of how I should look, I am 5'8" and don't like to get over 135-140lbs~ I panic bigtime, the last few months I have gained and it is driving me nutty..luckily the SSRI's(like Prozac, zoloft) don't usually cause weight gain, but they are also the least effective, but I used narcotics so long as an anti-everything I really must give myself a break, I think. I get a little freaked at times..but several months ago in a dream I somehow "instinctively" knew I would be well in a year, not like cured you know, but functioning, I have learned to always follow my gut instincts and "dreams' so many have happened, some really big~it was spooky. My friends have flipped out before when I told them I dreamed something was going to happen..and it did, maybe I am mental..but it has happened consistently for many years now.