Texasmamacita,
You´re not alone. I know the suicidal feelings all too well but now is not the time to lose control. You are depressed and stressed out because of overwhelming things happening in your life and you alone can make it better.
Try to organize your life. It will empower you. Small steps, OK? Just one thing a day. Make it your priority to contact your doctor and your sponsor and then go to meetings. Take it from there.
When you say you´ll be homeless, remember it´s your depression speaking. You see yourself at your worst. Don´t let the disease get a death grip on you. Take it one step at a time and call your sponsor and your doctor.
Let me know how you´re doing,
Love and light,