As Carol said, it's good that you're using several forums.
I'll give you my best shot but first I need to make it clear that I'm not the professional. Mark is.
You're seeking a lot of attention - that's
not a bad thing. It's a cry for help. But an online forum can only do but so much.
"how do i start getting better with my depression."
You sound as if you want relief
yesterday.
And that's like, totally ok. Totally natural.
My best suggestion to you--as a non-professional--is to seek help IRL. You know - someone to talk to. Will do you a ton of good. If you're going to school, seek help from a guidance counselor. Barring that, seek help from your local community mental health service.
It's out there. Use it.
We love you dear, and want the bestest for you.
-TCD-