 Update on me today
I guess I better update you all on me now. I have struggled a lot today. Found out my ex played me definately now for a fool, and it hurts bad. I have been put down so many time this week. I miss my cousin and it sucks everything that is happeneing. I am having the major migraines again and my shakes and I dunno why. I hate not having friends who I can count on and I am falling appart. I keep crying but no one seems to care. I am trying hard to keep a promise I made to Okietiger about not thinking bout hurting myself, but sometimes I wonder would he even care. I wonder if anyone would really care if I was gone. I'm not wanting to really hurt myself, but I want to drink again. I drank one night and it felt so good, I ended up drinking a lot though. I dunno, I need an escape.
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