I just got home from AA meeting. I use to white chip over and over many times also. I had 13 years once but stopped going to meetings and after awhile, I used/drank again. Once I got sick of being sick, I went back to meetings and got sponsor etc. Now almost 17 months.I can not stay sober alone!!!!!!! I can not be around people that drink or drug. I had to surrender to the 12 step program and higher power. Go to any length.