What a great post! I love it, I reminds me of how I felt before I stopped drinking, when I realised that I was loosing people because I couldn't love properly when I was drinking. When I realised that alcohol was robbing me of true emotions and love.
You have let no one down!!! Gee, I can't count the number of times I tried to stop drinking. This is something that you will come to I am sure. Remember to love yourself too. I realised that there was nothing wrong with me, I just was a person who needed to not drink. It was no sacrifice when I realised what I had to gain.
I also realised that my body was chemically programmed to make me think in ways to get me to give it alcohol. So I started recognising the alcohol thoughts for what they were, not true thoughts.
It is a journey, I have had highs and lows and learnt so much, I have gained so much. There is no way I would gamble and drink again, I just have a much better life and there is so much more to come. One step at a time, you are making steps towards not drinking and accepting yourself.
peace and love,
Brigid
