Can you believe that I was asked to be the speaker at the meeting today???
yes, little ol me, with 3 months sobriety.
It was an "As Bill Sees It" meeting so I had to select a passage and then share my experience, strength and hope with respect to the message. I said I didn't think I could do it because it may make me throw up, but agreed to flip through the book and see if anything struck me as pertinent. I only opened the book to one page and it was "Seeking Guidance" I read it and agreed to speak. I've been seeking guidance since last November from SR, my HP, my sponsor, other program women, the AA meetings, the Big Book, the Bible, my husband, a doctor, the internet and probably more so it really resonated with me.
Anyway, many people congratulated me on my courage and comfort with speaking and could appreciate my strength and hope. I didn't even think I had any since I was shaking like a leaf and my stomach was turning. Now I'm so happy and feel great. I can't even believe the ups and downs of my life these last nine months. I've come so far since last December I can barely even feel how bad it really was. What a ride, but at least I feel like I'm headed in the right direction.
Thank you for all your guidance!!