[jjaaam]

OK-to make a long story short when my wife and I got back together it was under the guise of me not drinking ever again.

Well, I have snuck it a few times.

Things have been pretty crappy for us for other reasons lately, and I feel that she is going to approach me about the drinking.

I don't want to lie (again), but if I say "yes I have" she will take the kids and go. They already got pretty messed up the last time this happened and I don't want to do it again.

I know - you say "why are you drinking again". God knows. All I know is that if I never did it again I would know that I have and that I have lied to her.

Should I just keep that lie going? I know this is a sh***y question...but I don't know what else to do. If there is ANY indication of me drinking the marriage is over and done.

Help...please.