|
I was depressed and having a lot of problems my last couple years in high school as well. The way you describe yourself (losing hope, suicidal, losing motivation) sounds exactly like how I felt back when I was battling depression. I had a really difficult time convincing myself to go to the doctor and actually do something about it. My best friend at the time sat there and made me call the doctor to get help. I would definitely suggest that being a starting point for you. They can steer you in the right direction if you need more help than they can give you. I know it's hard to seek help, but it's something you need to do before things get completely out of control. I was suicidal and OD'ed on sleeping pills my doctor gave me. I'm lucky as hell I didn't end up killing myself and definitely would not want to see you go through the same thing. So please seek professional help. Good luck and be sure to let us know how things go.
|