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Alan · 09-26-2006, 08:08 AM

My day started out pretty crummy running back and forth to a pay phone making calls to get my utility company to keep my electric on! I explained my situation and they were good with that for now. I was tired from running around
but then my day took an amazing turn. My mood changed from depression and guilt to uplifting and very clear. My body did a major 180 yesterday and I felt so good yesterday that I could not fall asleep until 4am. I was up all nite with thoughts of my life and my future with loved ones around me and me not having to ever use again. I really moved over a big hurdle yesterday and physically my body feels like Im on extacy. It is amazing. I must also tell you I started a low dose of .25 mg zoloft 2 days ago. I dont know if this is what helped but I feel like I did when I was 16 again. I figured out last nite that from the time I was 17
until my detox, I was only sober for a total of 4 months. Thats not at one time, but 30 days, 4 times. Tomarrow will be the fifth time in my life that I have been sober for 30 days in a row since I was 17. My body may be adjusting to its new freedom. I am very relieved and very tired right now. I feel like I have my life back in full control and I owe it in part to everyone who has helped me here the last few days. Your stories have helped me dig deeper into my soberiety and I understand now that I am doing the right things. Thank you all I mean that. I hope everyone is doing as well as me today.

09-26-2006, 08:08 AM	#305 (permalink)
Alan Member Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Clinton, NJ Posts: 64	I feel good. My day started out pretty crummy running back and forth to a pay phone making calls to get my utility company to keep my electric on! I explained my situation and they were good with that for now. I was tired from running around but then my day took an amazing turn. My mood changed from depression and guilt to uplifting and very clear. My body did a major 180 yesterday and I felt so good yesterday that I could not fall asleep until 4am. I was up all nite with thoughts of my life and my future with loved ones around me and me not having to ever use again. I really moved over a big hurdle yesterday and physically my body feels like Im on extacy. It is amazing. I must also tell you I started a low dose of .25 mg zoloft 2 days ago. I dont know if this is what helped but I feel like I did when I was 16 again. I figured out last nite that from the time I was 17 until my detox, I was only sober for a total of 4 months. Thats not at one time, but 30 days, 4 times. Tomarrow will be the fifth time in my life that I have been sober for 30 days in a row since I was 17. My body may be adjusting to its new freedom. I am very relieved and very tired right now. I feel like I have my life back in full control and I owe it in part to everyone who has helped me here the last few days. Your stories have helped me dig deeper into my soberiety and I understand now that I am doing the right things. Thank you all I mean that. I hope everyone is doing as well as me today.