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Thank you for your replies. I only tapered once for 5 days and immediately relapsed. I relapsed because I was tapering on .50 for 5 days from 40 mg a day. When I quit this time I went cold turkey from 250 my hydro and 40 mg xanax. I didnt know any better. I only had experience with opiate withdrawl. By the time
I was 12 hours into my last detox, it was to late to do anything. I was stuck at my condo and the w/d turned me to stone. In the morning I smoked some pot
I found and helped for an hour and then turned to stone again. I had the hospital number on my cell phone set for speed dial if I stopped breathing. On the 4th day I could move up and down and thats when my parents stopped by
out of the blue. We were both terrified. I knew I had hit my bottom and never want to go back. I never could ask anyone for help in my life because I was too proud. That detox changed me. God came to my rescue and I gave myself to him. I dont know how I came to do all the pills I was doing. The xanax was what
sent my life into oblivion. That drug filled every void in my life and made me who I was. I felt like a monster in the end. The xanax bars and blue hydro pills turned me into a dead man. I wont ever soon forget how out of control I
had become. Those days are over for me for good. I have had enough of that crap for a lifetime. I am 35 years old. I want to live to 70 at least so I may have at least half of my life back to myself. If I can do that, I will die in peace and not like the drug that I had come to be. This thread has helped me a great deal and am very glad I found this website. I dont ever want to have to go thru life alone again.
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