[shanala3]

first of all, congrats blue!!!!!!!!!!! you are an inspiration, truly.....you're gonna do this man!!!!!!!
ineedhelp, yes you are right, i have to find some things to do that will take my mind off. i'm gonna try the walking thing, i used to walk for 1.5 hours every single day i started when i was pregnant with my 7 year old and i lost like 55 pounds, but it's harder now with a 9 yr.old, a 7yr. old and a 3yr. old, they all have to go. what i should do is get a good bike with a baby seat on the back so i can tow the baby and the other two could follow,mmmmmm, we'll see. i had a small relapse this weekend, but i'm trying not to let it get me down. i feel really bad about it, i told my hubby, he didn't get mad. i just told him if i was really gonna do this i need to be completely honest with him. i am soooo sick and tired of sneaking around and keeping things from him, it's all about this pills, or was. i'm just thinking of it as a minor setback, i'm back on track now though and still determined, i'm still gonna do this. the thing was, i really wasn't feeling bad when i done it, it's almost like an obsession or something, i just couldn't stop thinking about it. i asked a guy that got me some a couple of months ago, and he actually said "sorry, i'm trying to stay away from everything, i haven't had any in over a month". well, i thought, that was god telling me i didn't need them, but did i listen??? NO! i could not rest until i got a hold of one, so i just asked someone else!! stupid stupid stupid, then i hated myself for it. anyway, like i said, just a minor setback......good thing is, i'm still feeling ok for now. i mainly start craving when i get one of my bad headaches (which i know is just part of the wd's). so i'm living off ibuprofen, excedrin tension, and bayer all three. ANY SUGGESTIONS ON HOW TO CONTROL THOSE HEADACHES WILL BE GREATLY APPRECIATED, the OTC meds just do not work for me. period.