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I have a question. I am starting day 7, and in some ways I feel even worse than at the start. The aching is relentless, and forget about sleep. The worst part is the depression and anxiety for me. The other thing is my husband's anger has finally surfaced. In the beginning he was very helpful emotionally, although when I asked him to help me a little around the house like feeding our 5 animals and packing lunches and helping with laundry by carrying it up the stairs, that fell on deaf ears. I have really been trying to keep up with the things I absolutly have to do, but I'm so tired. By the time the kids come home, I am very grouchy. My husband told me that just because I was screwed up, I had no reason to take it out on the kids and wreck their lives too. This cut me to my heart and I don't know how I'll ever regain his trust and respect. Being a mother to me is the most important thing in my life and when their father accuses me of being a bad mother, I'm so afraid I'm going to lose them. I'm just so filled with anxiety, I'm almost paralyzed by it. I'm scared I'm going to lose my family. Sorry I went on so long. I'm just scared.
P.S. Chloe; I'm sorry things aren't going well for you. I'm in no postion to offer any words of advice, but know you are in my thoughts.
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