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I am on day 32 and this week has been so hard...feel so low, really depressed..I started a new AD a couple of weeks ago. Monday was so hard, tuesday I felt like I could get through and then yesterday I just didnt want to be alive..I found myself thinking constantly about not wanting to be here and how was I going to get thru the day and then I have been awake since the early hours with the same thoughts. I feel so trapped in a life that is so unhappy and not because my life is bad but that I can just not get rid of this feeling of hopelessness. I love my family but resent the fact that I have to be here in life because if I wasnt it would ruin their lives...I feel scared that I could be tipping over the edge..and worst of all I can see no end to the way I am feeling...what should I do?
Chloe
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