[Cynay]

Welcome to SR.... We are glad you found us.

I think its perfectly normal for you to feel Horrible feelings when your child is not being responsible etc. I know as a parent I sometimes feel that my daughter is a reflection of me.... and when she messes up so badly it must be because I did not do a good job. I know that is not true nor healthy thinking but I still emotionally think it from time to time.

Im sorry about your grandson, maybe you guys could start doing more things together.... Im sure he will appreciate the stability VERY much and it will also give him a safe haven to talk and get his feelings out. I use Al-anon currently and have had alot of therapy ..... Might be that if you learn the tools to deal with this you could pass them down to your grandson till he is old enough to get help for himself....

I sure could have used it when I was a child.

I look forward to getting to know you, stick around and keep posting and reading. You are not alone in this struggle.