| help! Struggling!!!
Well, day 14 of my quit was a real doozie.
I'm stuggling big time today.
I had to give a MAJOR presentation at work today...A career-defining type of presentation...It was big.....
For some reason, I started to 'panic' a little this morning...like I needed a cigarette to get my brain into gear...I went to my old house because I knew there was an ashtray full of 1/2 smoked cigarettes (don't get too grossed out...they were mine from before)... I grabbed two of them and smoked them.
I did it again after my presentation.
All in all, I might have smoked one cigarette today...
I'm not happy with myself.
I just feel so fat...I've gained 5 pounds already...and so bloated...and like I"m not myself.
I might also mention that today I decided to give up my patch...I didn't think I needed it and the cravings are stronger than usual...but I'm not going to put it back on because I"m already 30 hours into the nicotine withdraw (except, of course, for the 'maybe' one cigarette that I smoked earlier today)
I'm committed to quitting.
I don't know what came over me today.
I'm struggling here guys!
Help!!!!
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